My Complete Profile

I never really envision the finish of anything that i start. It is the risk that fascinates, the moment of infinite possibility. It lures me through eternity when all other charms fail. I am the restless one, the impatient one, the one who is always spoiling for love and a good brawl. All i dream of are beginnings - the moment when the curtain goes up...

My name is Paul. I have been a wanderer for many years. I walk through the coven of the wise, the enduring, the ancient, and the careless young. Through numerous situations, i perceive life as a never-ending journey of pain, misery and suffering. There are other inexplicable things around us - horrors, threats, mysteries that draw you in and then inevitably disenchant you. Back to the predictable. The prince is never going to come and maybe Sleeping Beauty's dead. It is an awful truth that these things can deepen us, give a luster to our colors, a richer resonance to our words. That is, if it does not destroy us, if it does not burn away the optimism and the spirit, the capacity for visions, and the respect for indispensable things. None of us really changes over time; we only become fully what we are...

Thru time, i had become a temple for different emotions and passions, a beacon of a dark light that glows ever so brightly amidst the Darkness. I lean upon making my name engraved on every human soul that i can touch, feel, grasp... I am the blood that runs through my veins, my very system. A thick and powerful blood that raptures my vampire body, a private hell of body and soul...

I am the same Devil I always was, the young boy who would have the stage, where you can best see me. and maybe love me... One's no good without the other... and i want so much to amuse you, to enthrall you, to make you forgive me everything. Random moments of secret contact and recognition will never be enough I'm afraid...I feed on conversation from people who know and show who they are... I never pretend, I am who I am... I am a fiend, a monster, a demon, an angel, a Vampyr. My ego, if that is waht you call it, is my strength... the only attribute that I truly know and can identify. I am Paul... and nothing, no circumstance is going to defeat me.

Paradise

paradise is an endless night where the shine of the moon pierces the clouds, a fragile place where you have no shackles, no bounds...
it's a place where the tainted, the unjust, the unclean are welcome... a place where tragedy has no meaning, a celestial place where time does not exist...
paradise is a place where a beacon shines endlessly... a burning fume for the cold, the blind and the wasted... a fire cleansing the sinful, the unholy...
it's a place where the cherubim, the seraphim, the ophanim, the faculties, the archangels and the minions and demons conggregate...

paradise is a place where God and the Devil commune...

evil heart

stars glistening on a black sky, simple yet unearthing...
timid, tamed... yet fierce and unrelenting...
fire and ice, aghast! fire and ice...
thy guise, visage is a mirage, a refuge... a promise to a thousand torches...a dance of power and strength under the evening sun...